I'm not happy being skinny - i have no shape, long sleeved clothes dont suit me, and i cant even wear shorts properly without there being this space where fat should be. I really do wish i was fatter. Honestly. Not fat, just.. fatter.
Heres the thing - I have no motivation to gain weight. Sometimes i feel good eating heaps. Other times i really dont feel in the mood. So its a win then lose thing. Eat heaps, but then that effort disappears easily because i go back to my own habit.