28 September 2010

10 Day Challenge

Day 1: A photo of something you ate today
Day 2: Your favourite photo of your best friend
Day 3: A photo of an animal you'd love to keep as your pet
Day 4: A song to match your mood
Day 5: A photo of the item you last purchased
Day 6: A photo of your favourite place to eat
Day 7: Your favourite musician and why?
Day 8: Something you don't leave the house without
Day 9: Your skin care regime
Day 10: What's in your bag?

Day 14, 15, 16, 17;

I give up, this is too long so I'm going to quit this challenge and find new shorter ones -__-

27 September 2010

Trial SC Maths

I'm failing maths and getting 'average' marks as usual :(
Correct: 40%
Wrong: 45%
Unattempted: 15% (meaning I either didnt understand it, or didnt have time for it)

I did get 100% once for science though :D

26 September 2010

Christmas Holidays

So it turns out I'm going back to Indonesia next holidays, instead of my usual 'once-every-two-years' thing. Dont know if im going next year or not, but I kind of dont want to go this year. For one, I will have to leave my boyfriend behind for Christmas and New Years Eve celebrations :( I was so looking forward to spending time with him on those two days.. Not mention, I dont like the thought of having to spend hot days with mosquitos, having to wear very modest clothes. Then the trip to Purwokerto.. Have to spend 7-8 hours on the train -__- Did I also mention, staying at my cousin's house would be very awkward? Tante, Adit and Andre might not even talk much because of what happened recently.. and to think that everyone except my dad seems to be intruding on their hospitality at this certain time =/

On the positive side, my anticipation to go is gradually rising because I get to see my cousins, go shopping a little, and feel like a tourist all over again, going crazy over food, ads and those weird dramas on TV, and going shopping in Indonesian malls (i know, i AM weird).

Day 13; Somewhere you'd like to move or visit

I'd like to stay in Sydney, for one. As for whereabouts in Sydney, maybe Kingsford is fine with me already, because I like the feeling of being comfortable with my surroundings, plus it would be good if i got into UNSW because i can just walk. Hmm.. but UTS doesnt sound bad either. I passed this huge yellow UTS sign in the city and interior design and sciences were on the list of choices available.. not too bad ^^

Places I'd like to visit.. so many, and i think i already listed them down in a previous blog post, but pretty much Indonesia, Japan, Taiwan, France, Italy, Rome and maybe Queensland (i feel like im the only person who hasnt gone to the Great Barrier Reef..)

25 September 2010

Day 12; Bullet your whole day

  • Woke up
  • Took out retainer
  • Had breakfast
  • Read a magazine
  • Brushed teeth
  • Showered
  • Put contacts in
  • Texting
  • Internet
  • Lunch
  • School certificate practise
  • Internet
  • Texting
  • On the phone
And thats it for now :D

Dearest - Ayumi Hamasaki

24 September 2010

Day 11; Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up

1. All I Need Is You - Hillsong United
2. 酸甜 - S.H.E
3. Promise In The Dark - Keri Hilson
4. The Technicolour Phase - Owl City
5. 理想情人 - Rainie Yang
6. Not Okay - Varsity
7. 守護星 - Fahrenheit
8. 我对不起我 - Hebe
9. Biarkan Aku Jatuh Cinta - ST12
10. Don't Go Away - BY2

23 September 2010

Day 10; Discuss your first love and first kiss

This post is so embarrassing -__-"

Hmm.. my first love would probably be Tingwu? I had a hard time coping when we broke up and it took me over a year to get over it. I kept on claiming I moved on, but his constant statuses on other girls just brought about being annoyed and angry at him. This was back in 2008 I think? I learnt soooo much from the relationship though. At that time I was a really clingy person, and always dressed like a street dancer. Like, never feminine. We always had study dates and spent most weekdays in the afternoon at the library. We only went out once to watch a movie and I had to go home straight away. We never kissed? Oh, and I dont think we even held hands. Ever .___. We were together for nearly 2 months, but it ended a few days before our anniversary. I couldnt stand to leave him before 2 months. I could tell something was wrong a few days before we ended. I remember he had work experience near my house and we talked for what seemed like an hour. When he left to go back inside, he didnt say a proper goodbye, so i knew something was wrong. Anyway.. in the end he said he would rather be my friend, and plus he had studies to concentrate on. Hmm.. thats about it I think ^^ Nowadays we're friends and talk normally. I dont feel uncomfortable talking to him anymore so its all good :)

My first kiss was quite recent and it was with my ex. It was really awkward and it didnt last long. It was short but nice. But so 'out of time' if you get what I mean? We kinda.. didnt kiss at the same time. That was my first and last kiss with him ever.

22 September 2010

I dont like it when people use his name for the wrong purpose

..seriously, its so immature :(

Day 9; How you hope your future will be like

This is really similar to the one in ten years time but anyway.. O.o

Hmm.. maybe a leading interior designer, break-through-in-cancer kind of researcher or my own business in professional wedding photography? So far im not really dreaming big, and absolutely unsure of what i want to be..

Married, not sure if i want children or not. Living in a nice house, dont know which area yet and if it will be in Australia or overseas.

Hopefully in the future i will be financially stable, maybe even wealthy if i can aim that high.

The future is still a long way away, I have time to think about it later right?

20 September 2010

Day 8; A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life

I dont really remember, but I tend to feel best when im outdoors, the sun is warm and shining and I get to be in the middle of it all just lying back in the grass and enjoying nature. I know, this sounds so stereotypical, but I really do feel like everything is good when the environment around me is nice :)

Day 7; Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality

The above link is what I'm going to write about, so read before going on :)

As someone who doesnt believe in star signs, it describes me in many ways, but really, it can perfectly describe people in different situations and at different times cant it?

Qualities I agree with: Emotional, demanding -> loyal, silent, obsessive
Qualities I disagree with: Likes competition, determined, committed, eyes = strongest feature, constantly seeking hurt

18 September 2010

Day 6; 30 interesting facts about yourself

1. Chinese blood, Indonesian background
2. Can only speak English fluently
3. Ive been to Indonesia, New Zealand, Melbourne, Canberra, Thailand
4. First guy I liked was in year 2 and the guy was 3 years above me?
5. Travel sick easily (except for planes + trains)
6. Very easy to influence and change the view of
7. Underweight and unhappy, but can only dream of having the motivation to gain weight
8. Left eye: -4.25 and right eye: -4.oo
9. Scared of mosquitos that cant be seen at night, but can be heard
10. Can become full just from a cup of drink
11. Has spend literally a whole day on the computer countless times
12. Absolutely hates durian (both smell and taste)
13. Doesnt remember dates easily
14. Washes her hair once every two days
15. Maths is my worst and most hated subject right now
16. I have gone to $500 on my phone bill once
17. Can be quite spoilt
18. Buying new clothes boosts my self esteem
19. I have highlights in my hair
20. Has been in more than 4 relationships
21. Sometimes feels uncomfortable at church
22. Always leaves homework and assignments to the last minute
23. Has made 600+ paper cranes. Maybe 1000, but I always give jars of them away, so it subtracts.
24. Is an Australian/Indonesian citizen
25. Still counts on her fingers
26. Socially awkward
27. Loses balance just from standing on a flat surface
28. Gives up easily
29. Karate yellow belt 2
30. Has had 3 pet rabbits, 3 siamese fighting fish, 3 hermit crabs

Day 5; A time you thought about ending your own life

When I'm running low on self esteem or am seriously depressed, this my main thought. The thing is, God is always there when I need Him. He may seem nearly invisible at that time, but He's never too late.

16 September 2010

S.H.E Concert tomorrow! :D

Will be my first concert ever, cant wait ^^

Day 4; Your views on religion

First of all, I dont really like the word religion, faith is better ^^
Im a Pentecostal Christian, but I respect all those ancient philosophers such as Confucius and Budda - they have a great view on life, but you know, sometimes their belief clashes with mines. My God is what I live for, without Him, I wouldnt have a purpose in life, or have hope for the future. He's what stops me from hurting certain people, doing certain wrong things and all that. He is what makes me a better person. He there for me, when I need Him most, whenever I am lonely or think I am alone in this world, I just turn to Him.

What I think is that religion shouldn't be compulsory 'subject' in schools because students take it the wrong way and think they are 'brainwashed' or 'forced' into religion. I like how theres the subject, 'studies of religion' though, where you get to explore all different faiths :) I understand sometimes we're forced into believing something from our parents, because they believe it is the best for us, and they dont want our lives to turn bad or anything. But we should be free to choose for ourselves. Also, people are always misinterpreting religions and faiths. We need to be more open about it.

15 September 2010

Upcoming Shifts

For people to know, like Selena, Janice and Connie who want to know when I can catch the bus XD

18 Sat: 6 - 10pm
20 Mon: 4 - 10pm
21 Tue: 4 - 9pm (cancelled)
22 Wed: unsure
24 Fri: 4 - 10pm (cancelled)
25 Sat: 6 - 10pm
27 Mon: 4 - 10pm
28 Tue: 4 - 9pm
29 Wed: 4 - 9pm
30 Thurs: 11am - 4pm
1 Fri: 4 - 9pm (need to cancel)
2 Sat: 6 - 10pm
4 Mon: 3 - 10pm

im working nearly every single day. AND straight after the term finishes, SCHOOL CERTIFICATE TRIALS first day back at school T__T

Day 3; Your views on drugs and alcohol

I always refer to these two things as 'artificial happiness'.
Pretty self explanatory, eventually people live on these things and resort to them whenever they feel depressed or unhappy. Dont take the easy way out, guys.

My views? Hmm.. its hard. Im not against alcohol in moderate amounts and on special occasions - thats okay. Drugs are something i never want to encounter in my life. If being on drugs was like the feeling I got from strobe lights at my friday night youth, then omgsh. DEFINITELY not drugs. You dont know how dizzy I got from them. Everyone didnt seem real because all i could see was the 'lagged' motion. My head was hurting, I wanted to close my eyes. It was horrible. I bet thats what drugs feel like.

Anyhow, Im against drugs. Semi-against alcohol, depending on the situation.

14 September 2010

Day 2; Where you'd like to be in 10 years

To reach this goal in 10 years is impossible but my ideal life in that time would be:

Study at university
Successful career in interior or commercial/industrial design, medical science or photography
Participate in Hillsong Creative Worship team
Live in an apartment with my boyfriend
Maybe get married (maybe its too early for that ^^")
Be able to drive
Travel overseas to Japan, France, Rome, Taiwan and Indonesia (of course)

Why do i deserve to be with someone so pure in heart?

I ask myself that question every day.
People like me, with so many flaws, so many mistakes..
Im sooooo blessed to have you in my life. I would never take your love for granted.


Oh, and one more thing

Communication is one of the keys to a sucessful relationship.
Dont ask me why this came out all of a sudden, but I've noticed with my past that a lack of communication leads to someone on one side thinking something is wrong. You ignore them. Just keep being upset with them without saying anything. Obviously assumptions come out. "Has he/she forgotten about me? Moved on?" Eventually these negative thoughts domineer our previous happy ones. And we're left with hurt.

Wedding Dress - Taeyang

I have a bad feeling, one day this song will be of relevance to me. Not saying I'm Taeyang in this situation. You know. Someone else maybe.

You know what?

My thoughts for you, should only be for you. Its true I want to share with the whole wide world that you're special. But there are times when I wish I could speak those words to you, and only you. Because out there, there are people that will use my words, manipulate it and turn it against us. Like for example, "do you really know what forever means?" Girl, all we know is that it is only God that is the Alpha and the Omega. Beginning and the end. Really, to be honest, if theres an end, theres no forever is there? Would be nice to know what forever feels like though.

From this moment on, thats it. I think ive let everyone in on us. And now, from this time on, its only for us, between us. I say, make a private blog for those time we cant speak what we want to say? :)

The difference between you and them?

I can picture a future with you.
You're different. You're what a real relationship is for. Trust. Honesty. Love. Hope. Perseverance. Life is a gift from God that is too amazing to be experienced alone right? I want to walk this journey with you. Those rocks and boulders that we will experience sooner than we expect, will be tests against my love for you. I won't back down so easily.

13 September 2010

She's reading this?

I once heard a quote saying something along the lines of 'when you love someone, you put their happiness in front of yours.'

Day 1; Your current relationship

Everything is going perfect so far. Just a bit of a worry about my parents, but other than that, I find no fault in our relationship. Hes good for me and I couldn't ask for anything more.

12 September 2010

The big question

Today you asked me.. "why do you love me?"
Honestly, I struggled with that question for a while. It kind of played around on my mind - its a difficult question because theres so many reasons why, but i dont know which reason stood out the most. Is it your ability to make me smile? To make me a better person? No, those are all reasons that benefit only me. What about you? What is it uniquely about you? I cant really answer that. But this leads me to one answer: you're all about people. You are really caring, friendly, compassionate and a 'loving life' kind of person. The kind of relationship you have with God and people is really what attracts me to you. No kidding, I'm not trying to flatter you just because I talk about Him. To be with someone so God-driven.. you've definitely got me interested. I want you in my life.

Hope this answered your question, love :)


What was amazing about today was.. that I was able to keep my eyes on you for longer :)

Ashley Evans

An amazing guest speaker at church today ^^

11 September 2010

Prayers to my dad's brother / cousin's dad who passed away from a stroke yesterday morning. I can't even imagine how my cousins and aunty would feel. I visit them every two years and to think that the next time i visit, the entire household will feel.. different. I might be going to back to Indonesia at the end of this year, but just with my dad. I can choose not to though. But.. I don't know, its also really hard to imagine that he is no longer here in this world. I miss him. We weren't exactly the closest, but he did mean something. All I will ever know is that it must be difficult to live without a father figure. And for a sibling to pass away.

30 Day Challenge?

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.
Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.
Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 04 - Your views on religion.
Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.
Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.
Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.
Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.
Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.
Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.
Day 11 - Put your ipod on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.
Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.
Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.
Day 14 - Your earliest memory.
Day 15 - Your favorite tumblrs.
Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.
Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.
Day 18 - Your beliefs.
Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.
Day 20 - How important you think education is.
Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.
Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?
Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 guys who are famous who you find attractive.
Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.
Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.
Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
Day 28 - Something that you miss.
Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.
Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month.

11 September 2010

Letter to my one and only love

I love you so much.
I want the whole world to know that my heart will be forever yours.
Yes, forever is a strong word. I've never used that word in any of my relationships because then I know the meaning would be lost. Its hard to think that I think about you so much already, since we've only been together for exactly a week. But God gives me faith that this kind of love is true and right. Over 7 days and 24 hours, you have already impacted my life so much. You brought me closer to God. You got me smiling more and more each day. To be able to stand by the side of someone who is imperfectly perfect everyday makes me feel beautiful and loved.

Richard, you are my one and only, for the present and future to come.

Tonight :D

I get to work with you for 4-5 hours ^^

08 September 2010

I dread goodbyes..

Cant i just keep you forever?


Something is seriously wrong with "him"
Usually get only gets pissed off from time to time, but just then, he came out of bedroom in the morning, already with that annoyed attitude. HES ALWAYS LIKE THAT! Freaking slamming the door, sighing loudly all the time, handling stuff rougher ==" Far out, its annoying me too..

07 September 2010

I miss you already, Richard :(

Day Ten; One Confession

I think this is one day late but hmm.. i really cant think of a confession.
Oh, guys who wear nice perfume? I cant resist them.
Yes, I am being a little biased here.. okay, maybe too much ^^"

Our God is Love

This is love: Jesus came and died, and He gave His life for us.
Today he cooked food for me :D

05 September 2010


my boyfriend came over at night just to drop some food for me.. made my day :)

Day Nine; Two smileys that describe your life right now

and ^^

A reblog of a private post from my tumblr :)


I love..

How you waited 1 hour and 15 minutes for me during work

How you said you would cook for me

How you pulled me close to you

..And how you guided my hand around your waist

How you offered me your clothes when I was cold

How you showed me on your phone that you would could know whenever I was online

How you didnt fail to show your affections through actions.. and didn’t care that I seemed uncomfortable with it, or attempted to move away from it

How you told me you missed your family overseas

How you listened to my favourite song with me

How you kissed me indirectly

How you walked me home in the rain

How you kept me warm

How you wanted to catch a bus with me instead of drive me home

How you walked me to the corner, put your hand against the wall behind me, looked me straight in the eye and asked me to be your girlfriend

How you think our 4 year age difference doesnt matter

How I listed nearly ALL my weaknesses and faults, and you didnt seem to care

How I rejected you but you seemed to understand and still managed to smile

And even on Monday..

How you drew for me over and over again

How you managed to make me laugh and smile

How you made plans for us to meet overseas

How you really wanted to hear my voice, even if you knew I hated calling

How you texted me all throughout the afternoon, into the night, late night and early morning

04 September 2010

Richard & Emily

est. 040910
forever yours :)

Day Eight; Three turn ons

A great smile
A love for God, life and people

Day Seven; Four turn offs

Oh crap, I think I forgot to do this one yesterday. I forgot actually. I have no idea where I'm up to but I'll just post yesterday's and today's one just to be safe.


03 September 2010

Reblogged From Joy's Tumblr :)

S**** about to get personal, ready?
No, I was dared to do this T__T

Does anyone not like you at the moment?
I hope not..

Will the last person you kissed be the next person you kiss?
Doubt it..

When you say you don’t care do you mean it?
Really depends on the situation I guess.

Do you hate it when people smoke around you?
Of course - it's unattractive and unhealthy. And definitely not cool.

Are promises important to you?
Yes. But they always end up broken. I cherish the ones that are kept though

Do you have a reason to smile right now?
Half yes, half no

Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days?

Do you hate being home alone?
Sometimes I absolutely hate it, other times I don't mind it

If the person you have feelings for started smoking, what would you do?
I'd want to confront them, but I'd be too scared to. Maybe start becoming distant or something.

Can you last in a relationship for 6 months?
No.. =(

Think back in April, how was your life then?
Hmm.. I really don't remember.. Probably less stressful than it is now, because of the pressures of the upcoming SC exam, year 11 enrollment, subject selection, interviews etc.

Has anything upset you in the last week?
Yes. Took someone from work too seriously and got really offended. Thought they didn't want to be my friend anymore, but as I said, I took it too seriously =/

Who was the last person you texted before bed last night?
Richard :D

Where is your biological mother right now?
Sleeping? Haha

Anyone you’re giving up on?
There was no one to begin with

Would you be more likely to fail Science or Math?
200% sure that it would be maths. DEFINITELY MATHS. always failed, always will. i dont like maths :(

Have you kissed one person more than 20 times in ‘10?

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
Hmm.. depends who it is?

What are you listening to?
Well I WAS listening to "Hello, Again" by a Japanese singer. The MV made me cry so much.

Anyone you were good friends with, that you no longer get along with?

Well I wouldn't say I don't get along with them, but just no longer talk to them. They would be people like primary school friends etc.

If your best friend said they were running away, what would you do?

What, like right now? I would be speechless, because they seemed okay up until now. I'd hug her and never let her go so she doesn't run away. heheheh >:D

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
Haha, of course. Timmy =D He's literally like a brother to me.

Are you addicted to cigarettes?
In your dreams. Actually not in your dreams, just NO altogether. NO.

Someone tells you you’re beautiful, what do you say?
Hmm.. I can't really say anything besides thanks, so most of the time I just smile

Do you ignore people when you’re mad/upset with them?

Has anyone said you have changed lately?
Yes! Got my braces off recently, thats why :)

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?

Do you get jealous easily?

Have you held hands with anyone in the past two weeks?

You’re bored, aren’t you?

Don’t tell me lies, so is the last person you texted attractive?
I have to admit, yes :)

Did you have a better day yesterday or today?
Yesterday. Definitely yesterday :)

Is anything bugging you right now?
OMGSH YES. ASSIGNMENTS + EXAMS this upcoming monday.

Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Does anyone call you babe or baby, do you like it?
Yes I have been called that before. No, I don't really like it

What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
YOU! haha :)

Last time you felt like punching someone?
Hmm.. a week ago maybe? Forgot

What’s on your mind lately?
Assignments, cbb-ness, and something else

What’s going on with you and the last person you kissed?
We don't talk to each other any more. We never see each other =/

Who was the last person to text you?
Richard :D

Are you happy with your life?
You could say that, I guess.

Do you hate the last guy you had a conversation with?


What were you doing this morning at three?


Day Six; 5 people who mean a lot (in no order)

Unfortunately I cant answer that.
Every. single. person.
means so much to me, in different ways
It should look like this:

1. School friends: Selena, Connie, Kirsty, Liyisa, Joy, Janice, Evie, Jeremie, Amanda, Lady, Mim, Selina, Doris, Claudia, Courtney

2. Church friends: Roxy, Alyssa, Jo-Anne, Rachel, Leah, Sunny, JoJo, Tayla, Hope

3. Work friends: Sabrina, Jessica L, Jessica D, Jessica W, Ella, Juni, Amadea, Richard, Wesley, Wiggin, Arifin, Adam, Bhoj

4. DIGJC youth friends: Matt, Travis, Jacky, Lisa, Lily, Dania

5. SBHS basketball friends: Tim, Angus, David, Raymond

and if ive missed anyone, im dead :)

02 September 2010

100th Post

from kirsty

Emily: Its my 100th post! im posting up my desktop wallpaper (happens to be a repeat)
btw, max changmin (guy on the left) is mine, and will always be mine. always.

Day Five; Six things you wish you'd never done

Dated so many guys
Forget the birthday of a family member
Have my first kiss stolen from him
Called her a 'name'
Tell my dad that I thought my mum made a better parent, and that I loved her more (this was in primary school by the way)
Treated my sister with ignorance

01 September 2010

I need a calender =/

Maybe i'll go buy one, even if its already near the end of the year haha. I need it to sort out my assignments and homework, because with a planner you cant really tell what's ahead (like miss azzopardi was talking about). But that pink paper that shows the whole term isnt good either, because it looks cheap and not very decorative (no offense) .__. Dont want to sort things out on a note on the computer either, because its kinda unreliable if you get what i mean. I want a record of homework done and stuff :)


Have you ever forgotten the birthday of someone you loved the most?
And you went by that day not knowing? Not saying anything because you forgot?
I feel more than ashamed, lower than dirt. How could I have forgotten something that meant a lot to me?

Day Four; Seven things that cross your mind a lot

How everyone around me is feeling
"Him" - yup, theres always someone..